Monday, September 19, 2011

On happiness (and 200 posts[!])

For some time now I've noticed my progression toward 200 posts on this lovely blog. Part of me is amazed how it has taken since April 2009 to get this far, I guess I'm less self-involved than I thought, but another part is amazed that I've made it this far at all.

And for days now I've been contemplating what to write about for this all important 200th post. I don't want to mess it up, you know? This has got to be one quality post. I'm a fan of cumulative lists and things like them; I like the idea that you can look back on your life and have these constants, these things you believe in and that you know over and over again, even if for a while you sometimes forget. (There's a song by The Oceanic Six called Will You Be My Constant that is just all-around happy and fantastic, and I was just reminded of it by using the word constant.) I did a post about things I know a few months back and I would quite like to do one again. This time I think I would change it to a list of constants, though. I'm a super reflective person in this sense. I love perspective and seeing the changes in my life, but like I said before, I also love seeing those constants.


That dashed line represents where I deleted a whole bunch of stuff I've written over the past week that I just don't like. There was a list of things there, some constants from my life. I'd intended to add some more things to that list but when I looked at it today . . . I don't want my 200th blog post to be a list. I suppose in explaining what this post won't be I'm turning it into something else, so that's a start.

I think what I want to write about is happiness. Maybe even a little joy. And perhaps I'll throw in some excitement for good measure.

I've been in school for exactly a month now. I've been in Utah a little longer, but as far as school is concerned tomorrow will be the beginning of the fifth week. Despite all the time spent in class, reading textbooks, hanging out in the library, and doing homework assignments, I find myself to be incredibly happy. That's not to say I wasn't happy during my freshman and sophomore years, I've just been particularly positive as of late. I've talked w/ Lorraine about this and we both agree that something about this year seems very reminiscent of freshman year. There's something very special about a first year at college so to get a similar feeling again is quite awesome. Having a life full of joy, and I would indeed call my life at this time joyful, only contributes to a better academic experience.

As I wait to find out whether I got into the journalism program, I feel pretty focused on having as much fun as possible and becoming as happy as possible. For one thing it keeps me distracted and I figure if I'm really happy and then I don't get in, maybe I won't drop into as much sadness as I would otherwise. I tell people I'm preparing for the worst at this point: I'm expecting to not get in. That's not entirely true, though. I find myself hoping I do get in. A lot. I do feel confident but only to an extent. It's been a complicated month, that's for sure.

I wish you all the best at this beginning of another school year. Make sure to find some hope and happiness. And thanks for always reading.

Last YouTube video I watched: BEX IS OLD [I made this for the oft mentioned Becca since she's turning 20 this week. I miss your face, Becca!]

Oh, and one final note: I got into Pottermore. I'm a Gryffindor. So that's pretty dang wonderful.

1 comment:

Becca said...

i miss YOUR face!! but now i can watch it in my own youtube video :) and i love this post. we should all be joyful and happy!! love you! <3